Y Friday, March 27, 2009
I just got home from Ruth Ling's concert guest starring Martin Tang, Hanjin, Vocaluptous and my friend, Carmen Ang. Initially. we went as we wanted to support Carmen. However, I really enjoyed myself. Truly, it was a great concert. The songs were great, the singers marvellous and basically everything else was great. This would be an experience I would never forget.
Once again, I emerge from another round of SYF (choir) auditions safely. I was trembling and even after I sang, the entire room was silent. I was confident about my singing, but the silence made me doubt myself. After what seemed like a few minutes (really, it was just a couple of seconds), my instructor smiled at me and I sighed with relief - I knew i I had passed. Singing is one of my 3 passions and I had always tried my best in the school choir. However, this year, as standards are higher and so training is tougher, but I feel that I really have to do this. I have to compete for my school and win. It's my last year here and this my be the last time I compete with the marvellous team I have now. It just sort of dawned on me and I knew I want to do it. I can, I must, and hopefully I will.
'It's the constant and determined effort that breaks down all resistance and sweeps away all obstacles.' - Claude M. Bristol
11:21 PM
Y Thursday, March 26, 2009
I just started writing a new song about the importance of friendship. I don't quite know what gave me the inspiration. As I slept a couple of nights ago, I was jolted awake and then I had the sudden urge to start writing a new song. It could have been a dream, the only problem, I can't recall what is it about. Anyway, it's almost completed. And when they are ready, we'll work on the music.
I had an average day today. Nothing exciting happened. I did get a little fed-up about a little issue. But as I said, it was nothing serious. Oh... There was a really funny incident today. During our design and technology class, a friend showed us some really funny video and suddenly, we were all having hysterics. Sad to say, that was the only interesting thing that I encountered today. I had the rest of my day pretty much planned out.
There will be choir practice tomorrow. We are still preparing for the upcoming Singapore Youth Festival. I do hope that we are able to attain good results.
All the best!
'There is no failure except in no longer trying. There is no defeat except from within, no insurmountable barrier except our own inherent weakness of purpose.' - Elbert Hubbard
6:13 PM
Y Monday, March 23, 2009
It has been said that if you are too happy at a certain part of the day, something bad is bound to occur later. I have never believed this. However, today, I think it's true. I feel really disappointed about what has happened. The moment I heard those words, my heart shattered. It was not something I have ever encountered and it was definitely not something I had expected. The tears simply couldn't stop. Why does this have to happen to me? Just when I was beginning to feel glad about how today has turned out, something like that happens. I absolutely abhor it. I can't understand it. Thinking about it really makes my heartache. I am not perfect. But that doesn't give anyone the right to accuse me. Does anyone, anyone at all know how I really feel inside? Have anyone realised that a lot of the smiles that touches my lips have sorrow hidden beneath them? Have anyone ever thought that maybe all my laughter actually contain disappointment and hatred? I can't put on a brave front all the time. I'm trying. Of course, I do give genuine laughters and smiles but not always. I just wish things could change. I wish I would never have to hurt again. For all the pain I have ever felt, I pray something good is gained.
'Why, all delights are vain, but that most vain Which, with pain purchased, doth inherit pain: As, painfully to pore upon a book, To seek the light of truth, which truth the while Doth falsely blind the eyesight of his look.' - William Shakespeare
6:08 PM
Y Friday, March 13, 2009
It's Friday again and the holidays have started. I'll have to go back to school on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday though. This week had been rather rough for me. My back is killing me - I strained it. It was the last week of the term and so there were lots of stuff to settle. Choir practice is getting tougher as Speech day was yesterday and we had to perform and SYF is nearing. Yesterday, we had our weekly math test after lessons and we went home to freshen up after that. We then went back to school at around 5.30pm to prepare for our school's 35th speech and prize-giving day. We trained till about 7.45pm and finally went on stage at about 8pm. I took some painkillers before going to school. However it did not seem to help. Throughout the performance my back was aching and I had to smile even wider to compensate for the pain. I've got to visit a doctor tomorrow. I reached home at about 9.15pm and went to bed at 11pm.
Today, I had training in the morning and went back to class for form teacher's period where we played games as there were only four of us today - the rest went on a course. After school, I met Pam, Ky and FL in vivo where we shopped for a while. Soon after, Ky and I proceeded to china town to source for materials. The conversations we had often landed us in hysterics. It was really fun.
On Monday next week, I'll be going out for a while and I have training from 8-11am on Tuesday. On Wednesday, I have my design and technology (D&T) lessons from 1.30-4.30pm and on Thursday, I have chemistry lessons from 9-11am and D&T from 1.30-4.30pm and choir from 3-9pm with an hour in between for dinner.
When I showed KY my schedule this morning, she commented that I'll probably faint due to fatigue on Thursday. It was rather hilarious when she said it.
'When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.' - Helen Keller
9:47 PM
Y Friday, March 6, 2009
I had a rather eventful day today. In the morning, I.., well, the choir had a total of 3 rounds nerve-wrecking auditions today.I had my first round in school and the other two in Victoria Concert Hall where we had a scheduled practice session in the late morning. Training today was totally intense. So much so that I was trembling and on the verge of tears during my auditions. Thankfully I made it through. I really want to make it all the way to the end, but I'm afraid. Really afraid. I keep asking myself 'What if I screw up?', 'Would I be satisfied to just know that I've tried my best?'. I know for sure that I won't be satisfied if I don't achieve anything after all the effort. I'm going to try to do my best.
After school today, I went to the East Coast with Pam and KY. We cycled, played with cats, laughed and basically had a marvellous time. It was a really good way to de-stress after a long hectic week. We also took some really silly photos with I did not post. It was too silly. And we saw someone who rode her bicycle right into the bush too. breaking not her bones, but the twigs on the bushes instead. I was shocked and quite amused at the same time. I the end, we couldn't help but laugh about it. Then, on the long bus journey home, we played around with the photos we took, warping then and creating all sorts of different effects. It was hilarious. Seeing our faces all squished up and elongated and all, we laughed till our stomachs ached. I had an awesome time. My only worry is having legs that I'm positive are going to ache really badly tomorrow. Haha...
'In between goals is a thing called life that has to be lived and enjoyed.' - Sid Caesar
'In between goals is a thing called life that has to be lived and enjoyed.' - Sid Caesar
10:11 PM
Y Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Haven't blogged in a week. Usual reasons.
I really do not know what had gotten into me lately, but I feel different. I have a hunch though. I think I'm changing. For better or for worse, I can't exactly tell. Take this morning as an example. I was never a person who could express myself quite clearly in the presence of others. I used to try to summarise whatever I needed to say so that I can get it done and over with. This morning, when I was told to converse with the class, my mind was completely blank. I did not know what the hell to say or do. However, I felt a sudden impulse and I knew exactly what I had to talk about. So I did. After saying what I needed to, I felt something. I don't know how to describe it though. It's foreign to me. I was puzzled and this kept me thinking about stuff. Then as I recalled recent incidents, I had an epiphany. Either the stress is driving me nuts, or that I'm changing - growing up probably. I decided that I'm definitely not nuts. That leaves me with nothing else but the guess that I'm becoming different. I do honestly hope that I'm maturing though.
'We grow neither better nor worse as we get old, but more like ourselves.' - May Lamberton Becker
5:00 PM
