I was in quite a good mood today, and sleepy too. I had a discussion with my classmates about going to mdm choo's place this Saturday for her baby's first month. During the first part of the discussion, someone really shocked me as he fell right in front of me. I was just so shocked. I'm not telling who as it can be pretty embarrassing. However, I know I sound kind of like a sadist, but it was quite funny Especially after he fell, the guys all ran up and squashed him. It all occurred no more than 2 metres away from me and I was practically laughing like crazy.
Some of us had social studies ISP after that so we proceeded for lunch and went for ISP. It was fun and boring at the same time.
That's about it for today...

'We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.' - Tim McGraw

'Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.'

I was just so tired and sleepy today. I had slept late for the past two days and I think that I'll have to do so today as well. I hardly feel sleepy during lessons but today, I was sleepy throughout lessons.
I know this may sound pretty dramatic, but I honestly thought that i was going to faint on my way home today. I do not know how to describe the feeling I had but, I was just so scared.Things have been really hectic the past few days. Just yesterday alone, we had biology, English newspaper articles and my D&T drawings for homework and then there is the social studies test that we had to study for. I think I'm going to fail that test. I have to admit that I really wasn't prepared for it. I did study. However, there is simply far too many things going on in my head that it is difficult to absorb what I had studied.
What's happening to me??? I have never felt like that before. I feel pretty disappointed in myself. I have promised myself that this cannot go on. I'll have to try and go back to when I knew what I was doing. But, it is really difficult...

'Study is like the heaven's glorious sun, That will not be deep-searched with saucy looks: Small have continual plodders ever won, Save base authority from others' books.' - William Shakespeare

I'm blogging pretty late today. I was just really busy. I had enrichment this afternoon and I only reached home at 6.30pm. I then had to go for dinner and complete my homework - which I'm halfway through now.
My colour rendering is really bad. God!! I hope that I wouldn't mess up my presentation drawings. I slept at 2am this morning as I had been rushing out my drawings last night. I guess I'll have to do the same today. I have lots of tests coming up and tons of homework.

I also attended choir for a while. I just went back to kind of get a feel of what choir practice is like. I kind of miss it. Mr Liew, our instructor also wants us to go back and help out next year, especially for SYF, I think.

I hope that things can return to it's normal speed soon. Everything is just going by so quickly, I hardly have time to think of what I'm doing. I just go with the flow. I think it's really bad as, at any point in time, I really need to know what I'm doing. Yes, I do have my ambition, my goals, my dreams. However, the speed of things these days hardly gives me any breathing space.

'Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You can't keep it, but you can send it. Once you've lost it, you can never get it back.' - Harvey Mackay

I'll definitely have to burn the midnight oil today. I guess the same can be said for most D&T students in our class.
For me, I still have two more presentation drawings, one exploded view and a few more parts drawing to complete. How dreadful!!!
Secondary 4 life really isn't as easy as it seems.
I have also noticed changes in some of my buddies. They have quietened down a lot. things weren't as noisy and crazy as it used to be. Although some still remain the same, the majority have been affected by stress. The funny thing is that, they all react different. Some have really really quietened down, some became even crazier, and some simply buried themselves in their books. Even for me, I'm starting to find it a chore to balance my time, If we balance it, we have too much time for this and too little time for that. So, I have already thrown my schedule aside and simply do what I have to do and the remaining time - which is really really little - is spent of stuff that I have yet to do. Sometimes, it can get really really frustrating as, with such short time, the things that we can accomplish are really peanuts. most of our time are spent in school doing specific subjects, and by the time we can finally sit down and do our own homework, there simply isn't much time left ti complete them and we would have to stay up late. This leads to us feeling really tired during lessons the next day. A couple of my friends as well as myself used to be okay with sleeping at around 11pm. We would still be energetic the next day. Nowadays, on those rare occasions when there is not much homework, we'll try to sleep as early as possible. However, even if we go to bed at 9pm, we would still feel really tired the next day. GOD!!! Even superman needs his rest. Leon told me just now that he would not be surprised even if one day, one us us just collapse. How true is that. I totally agree with him. We can really feel the fatigue and stress now.

'Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.' - Thomas Edison

Had Ampowered again today. I think it was one of the worst sessions ever. I have realised that I have a lot of negative stuff to blog about lately. I guess it's because the exams are just round the corner and my tolerance level is decreasing. I just can't seem to understand how my classmates still can be so playful and immature at a time like this. They are just so difficult to deal with. 'Together we strive', 'united as one'... all these are just crap to me now. why bother wasting time thinking about these mottos when you can't even maintain them. Things were still going fine in the beginning of this year...gradually, things have changed. Those phrases can be used to describe us in the beginning, but now, all those are just crap. The committee have tried, really hard, to build up the spirit again. But all the efforts are simple wasted. Sure, we still do have times where we, together with 4N1 are really united. Does that mean that there is still a glimmer of hope? Should we continue to try and revive the unity we once shared as a class? I really don't know if I'm wasting time and efforts to be pondering about stuff like that now. I just feel so sad and disappointed that at a time when we should be to most united, we are actually not.

On the bright side, I got quite a bit of work done today. I managed to finish both my ampowered papers and even started on my homework. I'll not be as busy this weekend. I just have a few more questions to complete and some research to be placed on my presentation board and that's about it. I pretty happy with myself - for now. Things will be different come Monday.

'The achievements of an organization are the results of the combined effort of each individual.' - Vincent Lombardi

'Teamwork is the ability to work together toward a common vision. The ability to direct individual accomplishments toward organizational objectives. It is the fuel that allows common people to attain uncommon results.' - Andrew Carnegie

I was simply ECSTATIC this morning. I was in such a good mood till about 9.30 am. I was really glad that my choir attained a silver A award that I was smiling throughout the morning. However, after recess, I went to 5N1 classroom, to shift some stuff back down to our classroom. Since Ray and Junhao were moving the tables and chairs, Pam and I decided to help bring their books down. It was just freaking heavy. And we had to go a few rounds to get all the books down. I thought that those in class who were simply chatting could at least sort the damned books out and place them under the desks of whoever the books belongs to. But no. All they did was sit around and chat. Nevermind, I controlled myself. I did the sorting out with Pam. After a while, the noise they were making started to get to me. There I was sorting out the books and there you were complaining and making noise. I simply had enough. Why can't you people get you ass out of the chair and help out? Do I have to spoon feed you just because I'm your chairman? If I have to, then I'm more than willing to give up the position. Whoever wants it, take it. I cannot tolerate all this crap anymore. Every problem, you people come to me. And I have to solve them. What am I? Why not I just tell Mdm Linda to take away my position as class chairman and let you guys have a go at it. Who knows? Maybe you'll do even better. Then, I'll have some peace. Pam is also just your secretary and I think she is just as pissed off. What do do take us for? You are already 16. Can't you just be more responsible?. I'm tired...really tired. I do not care for the mere points I get as a chairman. I did not even want to be one in the first place. I only agreed because you people voted me and I could not argue. I really am beginning to hate all this. I'm beginning to dread going to school and face all this crap. From now on, If such problem are ever going to arise again, don't come to me. I'll only take what I need and you people can get the rest yourself. If you don't and do not have the required materials for the lesson, It's your problem. Not mine. I can't be bothered anymore. Don't blame me. It's really neither my problem nor my fault. I was in such a good mood and you had to go and destroy it.

However, I would really like to congratulate the choir. To be able to achieve such results, a lot of effort have to be put in. Thank you for willingly putting in the effort and maintaining our glory.

'You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.' - Jim Rohn

My day started out pretty badly today. I was feeling so terrible and pissed. I guess it's partly because of the weather and I had to settle lots of stuff lately. However, at about 2.36pm this afternoon, Leon brought me a piece or really good news. 'My' choir attained a Silver A award in their Suzhou competition. Congratulations!! The results are better than what we achieved in Hong Kong 2 years ago. We attained a Silver B award.
It's really great. But, quite a few of us felt that we had done better previously. We based our judgement on what we observed last Friday. We felt that they could improve in terms of their vocals as well as discipline. Of course, I'm not referring to all of them.
I have been feeling really down lately as the work have been piling up, and time is passing rapidly. A typical day for me starts at 6 in the morning, where I prepare for school. I'll reach school at about 7.20am and chat for a while with my pals, while waiting for the first bell to ring - at about 7.35am. After the flag raising ceremony, lesson starts. They would normally last all the way to about 1.30pm. We'll then proceed to have our lunch. I normally do not have ISP unless they are for the entire class. On the days when I do not have any ISP, I'll spend my afternoons in the D&T workshop doing stuff for my project. I'll leave school at about 5 every weekday afternoon and be home by about 5.30pm. I'll then have my bath and start to blog while doing some research. I'll have my dinner at about 7pm and watch some television. I'll start revising from *pm till sometimes, as late as 12 midnight - if there are lots of work. Otherwise, I'll start preparing for bed at about 10.30pm.
That's about it. A typical weekday for me. Yeah, I know it's pretty boring. I do not have any other options. I've done up my daily schedule and I've been sticking to it. At least till after my major exams. Then, I think I'll be able to let my hair down for about a month or two before I start studying like mad again.

'Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential.' - Liane Cordes

Some people are just so irritating... I had Geography today. The entire NA is involved, but my class is split into 2 groups. one will have their session today and another will have theirs tomorrow. Anyway, I was the only girl in today's session. I really did not know that at first. I thought there will be other girls in today's session as well. Just imagine being in a class filled with boys. No offense, but I was totally irritated with all those lame comments. I mean, it's okay to joke around a couple of times. After that, things really aren't funny anymore. Which part of natural vegetation don't you understand. It's so obvious that plantations are man-made.
If not for all those messing around, We could all have gotten home earlier.
We also had the racial harmony day celebration today. It was pretty fun. However, the thing just dragged on and on due to some unnecessary time wastage. Also, in the middle of the celebration, I started to blush. I really did not know why. My face just turned red. It was really funny. Pamela was like 'Why is your face so red??' When I heard is i was pretty shocked. I also realised that it was indeed pretty red. Hmmm...I wonder why...

'As a great man's influence never ends, so also there is not definite finality, no end, to a great survey; it runs along for centuries, ever responsive to the strain of the increasing needs of a growing population and an enlarging domain. ' - Cleveland Abbe

Lessons today were okay...Nothing really interesting happened today. Everything went well.
During our lunch break, Angie, Pamela, Jasmine C, Kaiyun,Choypheng, Jasmine T and I really had a good laugh talking about school life. It's been a long time since I heard myself really laugh. It feels great!!

During enrichment today,we saw that teacher again. But, there is a humongous change. It's as if the one that came the other day had vanished and in place, came a nicer one that looks exactly like her. Even Jasmine C was shocked. Thank God...otherwise, today's post will be pretty negative once again.

'A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life.' - William Arthur Ward

I'll be going to the airport to send some of my juniors off tomorrow. Some of the choir members are going to Suzhou for a choral competition.
Good Luck and all the best. May you achieve the results we are all expecting...
Best Wishes!!!
Bon Voyage!!!

'We must get beyond textbooks, go out into the bypaths and untrodden depths of the wilderness and travel and explore and tell the world the glories of our journey. ' - John Hope Franklin

Had our Mother Tongue oral today... I was damned pissed off with the teacher... no. Let me correct that. I am pissed off with the teacher. How can you treat us girls like that?? Are you a damned man maniac?? You hard up of men or what?? To think that the guys had no complains. And it's not just one or two girls who are unhappy...Almost all of us are. And use a bit of brains will you...I had not even sat down and you ask me to start reading. When I finally sat and was getting ready to do so, you ask me once again to start reading. Can't you bloody wait? And where is you manners? Do not snatch thing and throw things back at us ok. Can't you just take and give our i/c back to us properly? So what if you are a teacher. You have absolutely no right to do this. We did not offend you in any way ok. We were even damned courteous. Come on, You think you are that great just because you can come to our school and invigilate us is it? Wake up!! You are not that great. For someone who don't even have the slightest idea that her mannerism sucks is really not that great. To put it bluntly, you are not even an okay person to begin with. And in the first place, what bloody right do you have to raise your damned voice and scold me when YOU are in the wrong?? We're no pushovers ok. If even the best student cannot tolerate your nonsense, I think you had better reflect on yourself.

If not for that damned person who made my blood boil, I would have been in a good mood today as, thankfully, the exam was relatively easy.

*I apologise for the negative language though. I'm just extremely pissed off. I only apologise to the readers of my blog though. I don't find that I have the need to apologise to the person mentioned. You don't deserve my apology. Moreover, I did not say anything wrong. I know my language is kind of negative today. But I think those words fit you PERFECTLY!!!

'Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe.' - Albert Einstein

'A word to the wise ain't necessary, it's the stupid ones who need the advice.' - Bill Cosby

I had quite a calm day today as well. Everything went pretty well. All my work have been completed and well, I'm blogging as usual.
However, Under the calmness, I'm actually really frantic. I'll be having my mother tongue oral tomorrow and I'm just so scared. I tremble just thinking about...
What am I going to do...I wasn't this afraid for the English oral. I'm better in that subject. I'm so afraid that I'll fail...
Oh gosh...I'm so scared I could cry.

'A fool without fear is sometimes wiser than an angel with fear.' - Lady Nancy Astor

Time flew by just as quickly today..or maybe even faster. Our D&T enrichment today really made my blood boil. How could she criticize us, what right does she have? Doesn't she know that now things are done differently? Why not wake up and open your damned eyes and ears to at least try and observe the things going on around you...Do not just dwell in your boring little world which is so backward. I can't believe you don't already know that things are way different. Get the bloody facts right before you oped your mouth... God, and please think before you speak. The few of us are some of the ones with the most tolerance and WE CAN"T STAND YOU!!! We've asked around...And no one can either.
Just get the hell out of our lives... We don't need your help and we're much better off without you.

'The real voyage of discovery consists of not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes.' - Marcel Proust

I'm feeling really really upset today...I try to put up a brave front...I think I kind of succeeded but I was feeling like crap inside... I really am so disappointed in myself.....I really do not understand what is going on.
Ampowered today was pretty interesting though...I tried to concentrate fully on my work so that I can forget what I was actually upset about...
Life sometimes really is unpredictable...

'The human mind can bear plenty of reality but not too much intermittent gloom.' - Margaret Drabble

I got drenched in the rain while on the way home from school today...The worst part was, My school blouse is white...I guess many would know what I meant in that last sentence...sick...
And, we were given our newspapers today and thought that finally, we can hand it in next week as we have no English lessons tomorrow...But, no such luck. We still have to hand it in tomorrow.
That's all I have to say about school.
My sister's birthday is this coming Saturday. I'll be going out tomorrow to get something for her. Hope she have a wonderful birthday. I guess I'll not be blogging tomorrow as, I'll be busy present hunting. Maybe I'll blog again this weekend or as usual, on Monday.

My Chinese oral is coming up too...I'm getting the jitters again...I may be in band 1, but I'm actually quite bad in my mother tongue. Mdm Liu has been giving us lots of help on it...I do hope to do well... I'm not taking it as a joke...I'm sure of that...

'Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant, there is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks.' - Johann Gottfried Von Herder

I had so much fun yesterday. I was supposed to go to the movies with Pam, Ray, Kelvin, Qing wei and Yue Han... However, in the end, Pam had something on, and we merged with the other group which consists of Angie, Choy Pheng, Jun Hao, Jian Xiong, Jasmine. Anyway, there were 11 of us and we occupied almost an entire row in the cinema hall. We watched 'Strangers'...The show was so terrifying that I had problems sleeping last night. We even went to the arcade to watch some of the guys play... I just had sooooo much fun. I wish we could go out again sometime...I'll upload some of the photos tomorrow.

Today, those of us who went for the movie also played tricks by 'scaring' each other. It may sound childish, But it's all in the name of fun...After all, what's life without laughter...

'You grow up the day you have your first real laugh - at yourself.' - Ethel Barrymore

We slacked a lot today...especially for Ampowered...All of us simply had no mood to do the mother tongue paper... we did complete the MCQ section though...However, we paid attention during our maths lesson. so we weren't that bad.
We also had a talk given by our principal before Ampowered. While we were waiting, Angie and Jasmine started imitating the current M1 advertisement by making the 'woo-oo,woo-oo' sound. the even did it with actions and all...It was hilarious and we really laughed like crazy. I wanted to take a video and place it here but we did not have enough time...so, we postponed the video-taking to another day. As we were making our way back to class, we saw a bag of silicon in an uncovered dustbin in the hall and started making jokes about it...
Another funny thing that happened was that, I met Choy Pheng and Jasmine T. at the bus stop and after a while, Choy Pheny shouted, "MA!" I really thought that she had seen her mother, and as choy pheny was walking towards that person, I saw that it was actually Keith...Then, in the bus, I was like..'OMG!!! Your mum is a male?? Than what about your dad?' When CP replied that it was Jian Xiong, we simple burst into laughter. It was just so funny.

On a more serious note, a few of my buddies like Pamela, Leon, Ray, Jun Hao, Angie, Eileen, Kai Yun...are having their N-level oral for EL today... I wish them all the best...I'm sure that they can do well...Pam had been practising with me since last evening...From what I heard yesterday, she really shouldn't have a problem. As for Leon, given his command of the English language, he shouldn't have a problem either...The rest of them are not bad too...Seriously, I think that today's batch wouldn't have a problem... Good Luck to you all!!! 加油!!

'For man's greatest actions are performed in minor struggles. Life, misfortune, isolation, abandonment and poverty are battlefields which have their heroes - obscure heroes who are at times greater than illustrious heroes.' - Victor Hugo

'Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget about everything except what you're going to do now and do it.' - William Durant

Finally! The ordeal of my English oral is over...I was worried for nothing...The atmosphere was pretty relaxed. Hmmm...I think I did not do too badly...I have to admit I did stammer a little for the first sentence as I was a tad too nervous. But the rest of it went pretty smoothly. My examiners were friendly and they kept nodding and smiling...I really do not know if they were trying to comfort me or whether it was genuine... I hope that it is the latter.
My other worry now would be my mother tongue oral. I'm really bad in my mother tongue... I hope I do not mess up on that day...

'When I think of work, it's mostly about having control over your destiny, as opposed to being at the mercy of what's out there.' - Gary Sinise

I really feel like screaming out really loud!!! I am so nervous... I'll be having my English oral examinations tomorrow and I'm really afraid of failing...
Usually, when my pals come to me telling me that they are afraid to fail, I'll ask them not to worry, everything will be fine, do not be afraid to fail, just do your best... But now when I'm in this situation, I just feel so helpless, so afraid...
I'm really really scared...really really worried. I'm scared to fail. I can literally feel myself trembling...I do not know what to do. Since the evening a week ago, I have been reading anything I can find, aloud... But now that the examination is so close, I just feel the jitters. I can't even think properly. What am I going to do? What if I mess up...The mere thought of it just scares me...Seriously, I have never felt so helpless, well with the exception of the time when I was trapped in a toilet cubicle a few years back... I was really scared then...
Anyway...I'm praying that nothing will go wrong...

'It is on our failures that we base a new and different and better success.' - Havelock Ellis

I must admit, today is quite a relaxing day for me. Lessons went on pretty smoothly and apart from chasing for forms, everything went on pretty well. We had assembly this afternoon and it was really funny. I've watched the movie (I not stupid too) several times...but watching it with my peers gave me a totally different feeling and all of us really laughed a lot. The talk we had during assembly was about managing conflict and, well, it is useful but, to be truthful, I wasn't quite interested. I do not have the intention to prove anything....It just really doesn't concern me and I cannot relate to any advice given to us.
We were also supposed to have Social Studies ISP today, but it was canceled at the very last minute as our teacher had to go for oral invigilation. We wanted to attend our D&T session but our teacher is not there. We thus changed our minds and headed home instead.
Now, I'll have to go on and complete my homework. Especially the one which requires us to cut out the newspaper articles...
Good Bye... ;)


'We have to fight them daily, like fleas, those many small worries about the morrow, for they sap our energies.' - Etty Hillesum

Name : Angel
Age` : 17
school : RYPS, HSS
B-dae : 11th August

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