Hectic Hectic and Hectic... This is probably the only phrase I can use to describe life nowadays...Everything is just going by too quickly...I could almost see the blurred images in front of me. My English oral starts this Thursday and I'm so nervous... It all new to me, and I'm sure to most of my peers as well. Somehow, When we were younger, looking at our sec 4s, life seems to be pretty easy for them even though they have always complained about being stressed. however, now that we are in their shoes, I can really feel the strain.

I'm just so uptight over all that is happening...how I wish that things could slow down a little...just a little will do. The home works are piling up and it's really hard to cope. All we've been doing is complain and trying to finish up our homework...How boring... Sometimes, I feel as if I'm contradicting myself...One moment I list all the positive sides of something and the next, I'll list all the negative effects... Well, I really do not know what to do with myself...
Haha...

'When ability exceeds ambition, or ambition exceeds ability, the likelihood of success is limited.' - Ralph Half

Had our first Ampowered programme of semester 2 today. The first session was okay, but the second one was chaotic. The class was like a fish market with some of the pupils speaking at the top of their voices. Sometimes people just don't understand that enough is enough. We tried to control them. We really did but it just doesn't work. They either make funny noises or talk back. Come on. Show some respect. What the hell is going on??? I really don't understand anymore...the major exams - which could decide our future- are just round the damned corner...don't you care??? Are we having a study session or bargaining at the fish market? Aren't your futures important to you? I'm sure they are... I'm sure all of you have your dreams, your ambitions...Work hard for it. You are able to make it so far is because you had tried. So why let that spirit stop now? Why not just carry on fighting???

Well, after all the negative happenings, maths period was funny, i admit...but I'm not really in the mood to talk about it now...

'Do not confuse motion and progress. A rocking horse keeps moving but does not make any progress.' - Alfred A. Montapert

A really bad day today...I'm just so upset. How could you do this??? I don't believe it. I'm so disappointed.
I'm getting really emotional lately. I have my duties, my responsibilities, my studies, and a whole lot of things for me to do. As it gets nearer to the exams, I'm feeling more and more tensed. It is just the fourth day back in school and I'm already feeling more tense than the last semester.
I'm currently updating the countdown to the prelims and N levels and to I horror, I found that we only have about 35 days to the prelims, excluding the weekends and holidays. The N levels is not far off either. It is also only about 67 days away. and The oral exams start next week.
As all this draw nearer to my, my responsibilities pile up too. Especially since it is the new term, there are lots of things that have to be collected and/or settled. Pam and I are already finding it quite a chore to cope with all this. Some people are just so not cooperative. All we want to do is collect everything as soon as possible so that it lessens our load and we are able to allocate our focus to other much more important stuff...But how is this possible if your tomorrows just drag on and on...
This is seriously no laughing matter. I can't believe that we need more than a week to collect the report books. We've been collecting them since Monday and up till now, not everyone's book is in. It can sometimes get on our nerves.
I really appreciate those to hand in everything without us asking and handing them in on time as well. This seriously makes our job much easier. Thank you.

'Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.' - Will Rogers

For biology and mother tongue today, our teachers weren't here, thus, we had relief teachers and comparing the two lessons, I'd say that biology class today is much more fun. During mother tongue, all we did were close passages and most of which I didn't understand. However, I managed to discuss all of my answers with Pam and well it wasn't so boring as we had small chats while doing our work.
Biology on the other hand was really...well...interesting. Our relief teacher who came in started telling us stories about how our teacher was actually a spy and that she is unable to make it today as she is currently on a mission and flying an F16. I was just so funny and every started laughing. After that spy story, he started to tell ghost stories to try and scare us. But I think he sort of failed in that mission as none of us got scared... After that, we moved on to doing our own self-study and about 20 minutes later, his period was over. He is a really funny guy.
And OMG we have to hand up our newspaper articles tomorrow. Normally, we are given an entire week to complete that task but since the new semester started and the teachers changed, some rules changed too. I really wonder how am I going to complete them. Moreover, this time, we are given a selected topic whereby we can only find articles related to it. This makes the entire process more tedious...
No matter what, I'll just grit my teeth and move on. Just like I promised myself...

'Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.'
- Dale Carnegie

Second day back today!! We've already started on our academic programme...Things are going pretty well...In fact, even better than I had expected...I have promised myself that I'm going to work really hard and I sticking by it. I hope that all of you people our there achieve your goals too... Jia You!!!
I stayed back for D&T again after school today. I did not really do much though...Just watched Siti and JunJie running around, splashing water at one another...It was so hilarious... Both of them wet wet through after that...
I seriously have nothing much to add on today...so I think I'll just stop here...
Good Luck...

'All labor that uplifts humanity has dignity and importance and should be undertaken with painstaking excellence.' - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr

Hey!!! Just started our third term in school today... We had lots of admin stuff to settle... One of our teachers has started resting in bed already is she is pregnant...I wish her a smooth delivery...
We had a few of our teachers replaced...I'm happy with some but not really happy with the others...But it's ok. I'm only a student and my responsibility is to study hard and achieve the goals that I have set for myself. I hope that we all have a successful term ahead... All the Best everyone!!

'Whatever you vividly imagine, ardently desire, sincerely believe, and enthusiastically act upon... must inevitably come to pass!' - Paul J. Meyer

Hey!!! What's up...I'm finally back from a week's holiday and am currently getting ready for school which starts tomorrow.
We drove all the way up to Hat Yai, Thailand. We did lots and lots of shopping. I also want to Cameron Highlands. I went there for two reasons actually for the holiday as well as to survey the area as I may be planning a trip there at the end of the year for a few of my buddies as well as myself. The scenery there is simply breathtaking. It's just sooooo beautiful. All the greenery and fresh air just take away all the stress. The weather is great too. Not going beyond 29 degrees Celsius/84.2 degrees Fahrenheit, it's almost like being in a fully air conditioned place all day long...WOW....

I'll upload some of the photos in my next post. I just got back this morning, so I really do not have the time to do so...

'Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

We did not do our practical assignment today. Instead, we had our first theory lesson, after about 2 months. We were instructed on how to score well for the various components for out design journal. I have already completed half of my material list. I think that the list would probably be pretty boring as 99.999% of my artefact is made up of acrylic...
Seriously, I do not have much to talk about today... My day was quite peaceful. Sure, there are some slight distruptions from my friends, but they are not enough to spoil my day...instead, it kind of made me happier...for once...

'The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.' - Anne Frank

Really upset today...not with anyone...just upset that a part of my product dropped today and it's pretty much beyond repair. That means that I'll have to e-do that particular part...I'm just so frustrated...If not for all these crap, I would have finished my product today...Now, I'll even have to go back next week. I thought that maybe after three weeks of hard work, I can finally get some rest. But it seems like I was wrong...
Why does this have to happen? I've been agonising about the project for the past few months and since I was about to complete it, I started to loosen up and relax a little, but that damned thing had to drop. WHY?
I just don't understand...I was practically on the verge of tears this morning but I had to control my emotions and hold those tears back as I really did not want to cry in front of so many people...It feels like all my hard work has gone straight down the rubbish chute...It is just so agonising...The feeling I have now is really indescribable...nothing can make it go away...absolutely nothing...Why did it have to be damaged at this crucial juncture where everything is finally coming together? Where all my hard work is finally seeing some results? When I was so happy that I'd be completing my project soon?
I really cannot forgive myself. I've treated my artefact like it was a precious gem...and now it had to break...ARGH...All the good mood that I had caught a glimpse of has gone away again...far far away...I really wonder when it will come back...

'Anything, anything would be better than this agony of mind, this creeping pain that gnaws and fumbles and caresses one and never hurts quite enough.' - Jean-Paul Sartre (1905-1980)

I'm really angry with a particular person today, although I did not mention it. I was practically fuming inside...doing that to me is an insult...Never, had anyone dared to do that to me... Come on where the hell is your personal hygiene...Respect yourself first and do not shame yourself in public. You all think that you can get away with everything scot- free don't you...Well, sorry to burst your damned bubble but you are wrong...It's impossible. Do not disgrace yourself and others....It is damned low ok....Definitely not in the mentality of a 16 year old....
Yes, jokes are fine but do not go overboard...It's too much...

*Once in a while, I'm really angry and have to write stuff like that...I'm not the kind of girl who can take things lying down. I have my anger, my happiness and sorrow. I sincerely apologise for the use of negative language in this particular post...*

'Respect for ourselves guides our morals; respect for others guides our manners.' - Laurence Sterne

I've started on the frame for my luggage. I hope that I'll be able to complete it by tomorrow. My luggage is made up of many pieces of acrylic, thus it;s rather heavy. My entire project is made up of plastic...unlike Jasmine's which comprises of all three materials - metals, wood and plastic. Hope I'll be done soon.

I also had mood swings today. I just cannot tolerate childish behaviour. I mean, it is ok once in a while, but definitely not every day. Sure, most of the time, I'll play along...there's no harm in having fun...but sometimes we've got to act out age. Sometimes I just want to do my own things in peace..but is certainly isn't possible with all this disruption. I do get irritated rather easily...that I know for sure, but I do not get angry for no rhyme or reason. When I am in a bad mood, some do have the sense to leave my alone - I really appreciate that, thank you - but others do not...and that make me more frustrated and things start to go downhill...
*sigh* When will things get better??

'There is so much good in the worst of us, and so much bad in the best of us, that it behooves all of us not to talk about the rest of us.' - Robert Louis Stevenson

Yay!!! I've started on the skeleton for my luggage and will be able to start on the frame tomorrow. I'm so happy. I've nearly finished the project...

After tying up my hair, I realised that I have a fringe. I'm seriously not used to having one as I've not had any since primary school. I've always pulled all my hair back so that nothing get in my face and obstruct me. I'm keeping this fringe up by using hairspray though. It's not long enough to be tied back.
Finally, my D&T sessions will end this Friday, and I'll have a week's break. I've worked really hard this 3 weeks trying to finish up my project. Well, so have my friends and teachers...

'Change is a part of every life. Resisting is often as futile as it is frustrating.'

Haha...I can't believe myself. I actually went to cut my hair again. It's short but I'm still able to tie it into a ponytail. I guess that no matter what, I'll always make sure that my hair is long enough to be tied into a ponytail. My head feels much lighter now that my hair is much shorter. washing is a lot easier too... haha.

'There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.' - Carl Jung

Sad to say, I was pretty moody today. But, I got quite a lot of work done. I'm about 70% done. After sticking all the compartments together, I'll just have to make the frame and I'm done with my artefact. I hope that I am able to complete it by next week. Soon, I'll be able to start on my journal and presentation board. I know that I've been talking about this for weeks already, but I just can't help it. It is what's occupying my mind right now. Only after I've completed, will I be able to relax.

I feel that thanks to all the tensed atmosphere lately, I've started cracking some funny jokes and laughing out really loudly with my friends. It helps...It really does. I feel more relaxed after a good laugh. It's like all the stress has been released through our laughter. However, all this pressure has also made me pretty moody. I get irritable easily this days.

I have been talking about trying to control my temper...but with the tensed atmosphere lately, I'm finding it difficult to do so. I hope that everything will go back to normal once we've lightened up. It's just so depressing.

'It is the awareness of unfulfilled desires which gives the nation a feeling that it has a mission and destiny.' - Eric Hoffer

As usual, went for D&T today. I spent about 6 hours in the workshop. I've completed all my compartments. I'm only left with reinforcing them. After that is done, I'll have to start on the frame of the luggage and I'm almost done.
After completing my artefact, I'll have to work on my presentation boards and design journal...so hopefully I'll be able to finish the artefact soon.
Jasmine should finish her artefact tomorrow...congrats! You'll have more time to study for your other subjects.
I had pretty bad mood swings today. I was laughing one moment and the next, I was slightly moody. However, I think that I hid my feelings relatively well today. I suppose no one guessed how I felt. That is a good sign I guess. At least I've learnt how to control my anger. It is really difficult but I've made it...
I don't quite know why, but the word considerate kept appearing in my mind today. I feel that we should really take the feelings of others into consideration...especially the people closest to us...Once a bad impression is left on them, it'll stay there for good. It is really difficult to erase the bad impressions from one's mind... We may forget the good things that happen but sometimes, it's impossible to forget bad things like betrayal.
It feels just like a scar has been left in your heart. It remains there forever as if to remind you that you have made a mistake...do not ever repeat it. This feeling is really...well...suffocating.

'The arguments for purity of life fail of their due influence, not because they have been considered and confuted, but because they have been passed over without consideration. - Samuel Johnson.'

Name : Angel
Age` : 17
school : RYPS, HSS
B-dae : 11th August

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